Someone Like You

This song is exactly how I feel.. I always seem to end up in tears when it comes on .... there is so many emotions swimming around in my head tonight....

I know there is a plan .. but I just can't seem to get a grasp of it... my hope is slowly dwindling....... its so hard to trust.... so hard to believe that there is something better.....

I walk forward not knowing whats next not seeing the step right in front of me ... trying to hold on to the little trust and belief I have left.....

Here goes taking a step and trying to believe in __________ .

Pain

A small dull pain.. sometimes becoming sharp ... deep inside where no one can see ... you wonder if its real... if it could hurt worse than it does... if it will ever heal... you go through your day trying to forget about it hoping that it will vanish from memory.... memories... so real ...so intense ... how can you forget ... how can you move on...  how can you  become whole again...... Its a process...  that seems it will never end...  almost endless.. and yet it has an end...  when you lay your head down to sleep.. you have a moments peace... but only a moment for when you awake again the pain can be almost unbearable.... It never seems to go away it creeps up on you again and again..   finding rest is impossible..............