College: a bunch of rules

Have you ever hit a wall in your life that you think will not budge?  Well I haven't hit a brick wall per say.. but I have gotten frustrated with this thing called collage.  I have been thinking a lot about college, partly hating this semester with a great passion and angry with how society has created this expectation of "being smart" and going to college. I HATE this semester ! I really dislike that classes are required for a major that are completely ridiculous. I think it is stupid that the school decides how you shall learn, I am my own person I do not need some school telling me what I should and should not learn. I go to school to learn things I want to learn not to acquire a piece of paper saying I have arrived and that I can now be a successful American.

 So there is my little rant on college, I lay here in bed knowing that I still must get up in the morning to go to classes I don't like for a degree I"m not even sure is worth all the headache and butt kissing needed to achieve it.

Till tomorrow ... maybe some sleep with bring some sense to me.

Many Changes

It has been quite some time since I have graced this blog with my writing abilities. I feel as though it has been neglected and so I have given it a great little face lift and a new plan of action to keeping it more prominent in my BUSY life.    I know I don't have many "blogger" friends yet but I know that IF I actually start writing again that my blog will start to flourish just as I have as a person these last few months

So here's to a new start and a great new look

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NEW YORK CITY BABY !!!!!! 

In case you couldn't tell I decided to take a little vacation to the beautiful, busy, and crowded NYC to visit my dear friend.  I made the DREADFUL mistake last semester to not take a small break to "freshen up" before the busy semester season started and I greatly regretted it !  I was in rough shape by the end of last semester and  I didn't want to have a repeat of that so thus the trip.  Its also a great excuse to have some AMAZING fun with PHOTOGRAPHY.  This place is like a photographers playground and I am taking EVERY opportunity to "play".   In addition there is a  GREAT post coming from this little ADVENTURE.

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Honesty

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Someone Like You

This song is exactly how I feel.. I always seem to end up in tears when it comes on .... there is so many emotions swimming around in my head tonight....

I know there is a plan .. but I just can't seem to get a grasp of it... my hope is slowly dwindling....... its so hard to trust.... so hard to believe that there is something better.....

I walk forward not knowing whats next not seeing the step right in front of me ... trying to hold on to the little trust and belief I have left.....

Here goes taking a step and trying to believe in __________ .

Pain

A small dull pain.. sometimes becoming sharp ... deep inside where no one can see ... you wonder if its real... if it could hurt worse than it does... if it will ever heal... you go through your day trying to forget about it hoping that it will vanish from memory.... memories... so real ...so intense ... how can you forget ... how can you move on...  how can you  become whole again...... Its a process...  that seems it will never end...  almost endless.. and yet it has an end...  when you lay your head down to sleep.. you have a moments peace... but only a moment for when you awake again the pain can be almost unbearable.... It never seems to go away it creeps up on you again and again..   finding rest is impossible..............